David - The Songs

I won't get into all of them, but regarding the CD I listened to today one of the songs on that CD was *gasp* Britney Spears "Everytime"

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly,
I fall Without my wings,
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly,
I fall Without my wings,
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face,
you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly,
I fall Without my wings,
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face,
you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

So many lines in that song relate to my feelings. It hurt so bad but I really would pray that I could move on. I never want his "face to fade away" but he really is "haunting me" in the sense that he's everywhere. I think sometimes how cool it would've been to have him live down here close to me and maybe rekindle a nice relationship. To be close. Now it'll never happen. All because of one girl who was too selfish to value him for who he really was.

The other song I think about it "My Immortal" by Evanescence:

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

Like "Everytime" this song reflects how my brother just stays with me. What really gets me is it the lines that say "There's just too much that time cannot erase". Obviouslly time will never take this away.

Damn. I dare someone to say that I'm shallow and unemotional. I think I'm the deepest and most sensitive person alive LOL

That'll be enough of my "grieving" for today. I had to get it all off my chest. Thanks everyone...